In Darkness

This is not a living positive blog but sleep is eluding me because my heart is broken. I feel that I need to share this now, only once, so I don't have to keep reliving it, although in reality I will - over and over. My little dog Max is gone. He was killed in a horrible accident while trying to scoot under the garage door. We were diligent in protecting him on a daily basis because he was a big dog in a tiny dog's body but we didn't see this one coming.

From the moment I met him, he began weaving himself into my heart and now a piece of my heart is gone and I don't feel that it will ever heal. I know what you're thinking - he was just a dog - thank God that it wasn't your human children. Yes, I realize that and I am thankful that my kids are healthy and well and are so strong for me right now. However, people who have dogs know that your relationship with them evolves so much that before you know it, they have become your furry children and Max was my little man. My little love who made me smile and feel loved. Right now at 3am it feels as if life will never be the same. A light has gone out in my life and I will be in darkness for awhile. But I'm sure that the sun will come up and I will hug my human children and my loving husband and be reminded that I am blessed in so many ways.  But it will take me some time to get over the loss of my Max.

Goodbye Max, your momma loves you and I am so sorry that our time was so short together.